Laying it Down

There has been a war going on in my head ever since the idea of starting a blog landed there. There is no doubt it was placed there by the Lord, but because of that there is also no doubt that Satan is trying to derail it.

And in complete honesty, he has been succeeding. Although I want this to bring glory to the Father alone, I have been focusing more on how I will be successful, how I will reach people and speak to them. I have spent hours upon hours thinking up ideas for this blog myself rather than asking the Lord to speak through me.

While the Lord has been whispering truth, I have been listening more to the lies:

Your blogs must be perfect before you share them.

Your social media must be uniform and aesthetically pleasing.

You can use this to make yourself known.

But praise the Lord for His kind and very much needed slaps in the face every now and then. When I wasn’t listening to his still voice, he spoke through human voices to make it more obvious:

It’s not about the look, it’s about the mission and the message.

Then as I continued to be stubborn, He gave me an annoying feeling of unrest as I continued to lay on my bed trying to think up my own plans until I had had enough.

This is me officially laying down the burden of being in control, and telling Satan that he no longer has a place in this journey. This is me dropping back into the shadows so that my Father’s beauty no longer has to be dimmed.

God, I invite your searching gaze into my heart.
Examine me through and through;
find out everything that may be hidden within me.
Put me to the test and sift through all my anxious cares.
24 See if there is any path of pain I’m walking on,
and lead me back to your glorious, everlasting ways—
the path that brings me back to you.

Psalms 139:23-24 TPT

Heavenly Father, that is my prayer. I surrender to you completely. Make me a vessel for your truth and authentic love, and nothing more.

♡ a tethered heart

A New Season

As summer quickly comes to a close, I can’t help but look back in awe and praise at all the Lord did in me. You see, I entered into summer with some pretty bold prayers.

Come wreck me.

Do whatever you want to do.

Say whatever you want to say.

Move however you want to move.

Change whatever you want to change.

I was scared of what might happen. And quite honestly, it wasn’t always easy as the Lord went to work. So many thoughts swept through my head:

Am I called to missions?

Why am I even going to college?

Should I change my major?

What is God’s plan for my life?

I was getting anxious. I wanted to know the entire plan for my future… all of it. Whether it was a 10 step plan or a 100 step plan, I wanted to know so I could get moving. But the Lord wanted me to rest and enjoy the period of change he was walking me through. As I began to question everything that I thought I was sure about, I realized how little I had been trusting God and how much I needed to be. As I began to focus on the Giver himself more than what He was giving me (or not giving me), He began to make more things known to me. It’s funny how that works. When we give up, the Lord gives.

The Lord sure did give me a lot: A lot of passion, a lot of inspiration, a lot of community, and a lot of risks to take.

And this blog is the first one. I told Him I was trading in self consciousness for vulnerability at the beginning of the summer, and he jumped right on that, whispering:

Be vulnerable with those close to you.

But then reach farther.

It’s not always easy to pray big prayers. And it’s definitely not easy to wait for the answers. But don’t let that stop you because the Lord has a sweet journey for you, and I don’t want you to miss it.

♡ A tethered heart

An Ending and a Beginning

Hello my people!

I know what you’re thinking.. Dannah’s still blogging? She’s been back for two whole weeks! Or maybe you don’t know how long I’ve been back because I haven’t blogged since I stepped foot in the wonderful ATX (oops). I would say shame on me, but I know the one and only Kelsey Eiles would appear over my shoulder and rebuke those words and tell me that shame does not come from the Lord and therefore has no place (thank you Kelsey for your many words of wisdom). But I am dearly sorry, it has taken me many hours to debrief my month in Nepal… and quite honestly I’m not even close to done. And that’s the reason I haven’t banged my fingers on the keys in a while. 

I gotta admit I had this “perfect” idea in my head that I would come home, get my whole life together, and pop on the blog to announce some grand plan for my future and tell you what God’s plan is for my life down to the T. But of course that didn’t happen. Yes, the Lord gave me some really exciting ideas for the future (more on that later), but it’s not like he handed me a book that tells me how the journey will start and end. That’s never how it works… and I laugh at myself now for thinking it would. We are all living stories that the Lord is beautifully writing, placing each word down on the page in his perfect timing. As he closed the chapter on Nepal, he intertwined some foreshadowing into his narrative to hint at future events in the book. He didn’t spoil the ending, that wouldn’t be any fun! Instead, he spilled just enough to keep the main character (me in this case) on her toes in anticipation. 

So without further ado, I am here to announce that I will be starting my own blog in the near future, so stay tuned! This is just the beginning… :))

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P.S. This blog and all blogs before this one were written on a different platform that I used while on mission in Nepal. So you are a witness that I did in fact create my own personal blog 🙂