Take a Shower

You know how some people drink coffee to function at their best, others take a nap to solve a problem they previously couldn’t, and others fidget with things to focus? Everyone seems to have something that motivates them, but it isn’t that simple for me. I can’t just drink something, fall asleep real quick (although I wish I could because I love naps a lot), or pick up something around me. No, I have to be in a home, preferably mine, which is not where I am a lot of the time! And that is because my thing is… drum role please… taking a shower.

Now let me explain. A lot of people have shower thoughts, and many of those people are those who take really long showers and have the time to get lost in their mind. This is not the same as that. If I step into a shower with the need for an idea, I step out of the shower with the best one. It’s literally insane. It doesn’t matter how long the shower is, it just happens. Even when I am not in need of an idea, I get one. Pretty much every time. I need some kind of waterproof notepad because I’m always rushing out of the shower to write everything down before I forget any of it (because it’s usually many things). Just the other day I couldn’t figure out what to write, so I took a shower and came running out to write my blog! What’s more, a shower gave me the idea to start a blog in the first place! My family finds it quite entertaining to find out what I discovered each time I open the door. I personally think it’s quite fascinating, and usually I’m pretty excited to take a shower.

Here’s the thing though. You may already know this (if not, sorry for the spoiler), but the shower is not magic. And it took me a while to realize (in a recent shower) that the reason it happens is because the shower is the one place I am completely attentive, without distraction. It is the one place the Lord can reach me without anything else getting in the way. Even when I’m praying or doing my quiet time, I’ll see something as my mind wanders off. But in the shower I’m staring at blank walls. Yes, my mind can wander in the shower too, but at this point I am so expectant of the ideas to come that it is all I focus on. I remembered how I used to make it a point to pray while in the shower and realized that overtime I have subconsciously trained myself to focus solely on God while in the shower.

So full discloser: It is not the shower that gives me ideas, it is the Lord using something as simple as a shower to reach me.

I think it is so amazing that He loves me enough to meet me wherever and whenever I am available, since I usually make myself unavailable. His grace literally washes over me as he speaks to me in giant gushes all at once since I fail to hear his gradual whispers throughout the day. He has not given up on me and he will never give up on me. And the same is true for you.

What I’m saying is that you don’t have to go take a literal shower (unless you stink, then please do), but go take a shower! Find that space where you can meet with your Father without anything else party crashing. I say party crashing because that time with Him is a party, at least in my opinion. Just the other day I came bursting out of the shower and found myself jumping on the couch, which I really never did as a child. It was pretty fun, not gonna lie.

SO! I dare you to give God a few spare minutes (but they gotta be good minutes, none of that pray for a bit then look at your phone for a bit nonsense, which I am guilty of) and see where He takes you. You just might find yourself getting told to stop breaking the couch 🙂

♡ a tethered heart

Laying it Down

There has been a war going on in my head ever since the idea of starting a blog landed there. There is no doubt it was placed there by the Lord, but because of that there is also no doubt that Satan is trying to derail it.

And in complete honesty, he has been succeeding. Although I want this to bring glory to the Father alone, I have been focusing more on how I will be successful, how I will reach people and speak to them. I have spent hours upon hours thinking up ideas for this blog myself rather than asking the Lord to speak through me.

While the Lord has been whispering truth, I have been listening more to the lies:

Your blogs must be perfect before you share them.

Your social media must be uniform and aesthetically pleasing.

You can use this to make yourself known.

But praise the Lord for His kind and very much needed slaps in the face every now and then. When I wasn’t listening to his still voice, he spoke through human voices to make it more obvious:

It’s not about the look, it’s about the mission and the message.

Then as I continued to be stubborn, He gave me an annoying feeling of unrest as I continued to lay on my bed trying to think up my own plans until I had had enough.

This is me officially laying down the burden of being in control, and telling Satan that he no longer has a place in this journey. This is me dropping back into the shadows so that my Father’s beauty no longer has to be dimmed.

God, I invite your searching gaze into my heart.
Examine me through and through;
find out everything that may be hidden within me.
Put me to the test and sift through all my anxious cares.
24 See if there is any path of pain I’m walking on,
and lead me back to your glorious, everlasting ways—
the path that brings me back to you.

Psalms 139:23-24 TPT

Heavenly Father, that is my prayer. I surrender to you completely. Make me a vessel for your truth and authentic love, and nothing more.

♡ a tethered heart

A New Season

As summer quickly comes to a close, I can’t help but look back in awe and praise at all the Lord did in me. You see, I entered into summer with some pretty bold prayers.

Come wreck me.

Do whatever you want to do.

Say whatever you want to say.

Move however you want to move.

Change whatever you want to change.

I was scared of what might happen. And quite honestly, it wasn’t always easy as the Lord went to work. So many thoughts swept through my head:

Am I called to missions?

Why am I even going to college?

Should I change my major?

What is God’s plan for my life?

I was getting anxious. I wanted to know the entire plan for my future… all of it. Whether it was a 10 step plan or a 100 step plan, I wanted to know so I could get moving. But the Lord wanted me to rest and enjoy the period of change he was walking me through. As I began to question everything that I thought I was sure about, I realized how little I had been trusting God and how much I needed to be. As I began to focus on the Giver himself more than what He was giving me (or not giving me), He began to make more things known to me. It’s funny how that works. When we give up, the Lord gives.

The Lord sure did give me a lot: A lot of passion, a lot of inspiration, a lot of community, and a lot of risks to take.

And this blog is the first one. I told Him I was trading in self consciousness for vulnerability at the beginning of the summer, and he jumped right on that, whispering:

Be vulnerable with those close to you.

But then reach farther.

It’s not always easy to pray big prayers. And it’s definitely not easy to wait for the answers. But don’t let that stop you because the Lord has a sweet journey for you, and I don’t want you to miss it.

♡ A tethered heart